I Know

The day I left

His house I closed

The door and said

Aloud

These words

Like I was asked

My feelings from

The clouds,

Like muscle memory

Kicked in and took

Control, I had

No choice.

A doctor swung

A hammer at my

Heart to hear

My voice.

I know.

Then every time

I've seen him since

And we start to

Part ways,

I say aloud

The second that

He can't see

My face

These words,

And I write it down

In a diary

I keep

To show him when

The time is right,

But for now is just

For me.

I know.

And now I wait

Here for the day

That I get to

Hear back

The words I have

Screamed to his face

While hidden behind

A laugh,

A smile, a nod,

A tug at his shirt,

A kiss, cause it's

Too soon,

But you can bet

I can’t wait

To hear him say

It too.

I know.